Tuesday, April 20, 2010

An ever Lasting emotion


It began with my awakening to the sound of her anklets and the first image that would come to my mind would be of that one red dot on her forehead and her black wet hair falling down on her fair face beautifully. But reality turned out to be something else. My daughter was standing in a beautiful saree. She had put on her mother’s jewelleries and she looked more beautiful than her mom. And she said “Dad lunch is ready.” Then I realised that I had slept so long. It was afternoon. Then I asked her “Where are you going?” She replied “I am going in Sangeet ceremony of my friend. I told you about it earlier.” Oh! Yes you told me your friend Neeta right!” “ Yes Neeta.” She said.
I started eating lunch and she left the house with her loving bye. I realised that my daughter is now a big girl how time had changed. I finished my lunch and went in my room. I sat on my easy chair with a magazine in my hand. And I went on a journey of time in my thoughts. And I saw a women in fluorescent green saree with deep neck blue blouse; a red huge dot on her forehead, fair face, lips covered under a thick layer of red lipstick. She was the women who earned her livelihood by selling herself. I met her at a street. I saw a special light in her, light coming from her within. Her inner light attracted me towards her. I went close to her and asked her “how much will u take for lifetime?” She was surprised by my question. Looked at me with her eyes wide open and said after a second “kya re kya bola?” Again I said “sari umra ka kitna?” She said “bewada kahin ka! Kya re kitna piya?” I kept silent and looked at her with all my desire, passion, respect and love for her in my eyes. For a moment I thought I’ll be not able to get her. But then again I tried for the last time and said “I want to spend my entire life with you. Will you marry me?” she asked me in a polite manner(may be she felt something for me) “ Are you in your senses?” I replied “Yes I am.”
I saw her melting from inside. In her eye were saying that she thirsted for this for her entire life and she hugged me so tightly that even wind could not come in between us. Then ting tong ting tong. What???? Ting tong ting tong. Oh! The door bell is ringing. I opened the door and yes she is here. The same women of thoughts. MY WIFE.

TONIGHT


Tonight I m all alone and lying on bed feeling blue in thoughts. I am here lying lost in some another world but with some facts of this world. I am watching you and me rolled in same sheet, holding hands, some passionate desires making back and forth motion. Smiles and moans are describing all our feeling and pleasure of being together. Sweat on your face is making you glow and it is making me want you more. Sensation from you is making me desire your lips on mine. We are embracing each other. But I know all those things are part of other world now, but you are true or you were truth. I am not fantasying you. There was time when I covered myself in your arms but now I am alone. I don’t know what is the reason or the mystery why we are not together tonight or maybe I know.....

Monday, December 22, 2008

Kya aap kisi se pyaar kar sakte hain...

kya aap kisi se itna pyaar karte h ki aap use jane de sake agar woh aapse door jana chah rha ho...log aksarkahte toh hai ki main tumhe bahut pyar karta hu.. tum bin ji nhi skta.. tum mujhe chhod kar kabhi mat jana...likin kya hm kabhi sochte hai ki kya woh hmare sath wakai khush h...hum toh bs yahi kahte h ki main tumse bahut pyaar karta hu..tum mere jindagi ho... tumhare saath bahut achchha lagta h..tumne mujhe roshni dedi.. tumne mujhe jina sikhaya...aur na janekya hm unse kah jate h.... hum apni har baat har kissa har raaz sab batate h aur.... jab ek din woh hmse kahta h ki main ab tumhare saath nhi rhna chahti/chahta...
Toh aap ussase jane kitne sawal karte hai... kya tumhare liye yeh sab mazak tha, maine tumhe apna mana tha har raaz banta, kabhi kuch nhi chhupaya,tum meri jindagi ban gaye ho, tumse maine jina sikha, tumhare saath kitne sapane dekhe,main tumhe jane nhi doonga,tum mere sath aisa kaise kr skte ho,aur na jane kitne sawal.....
Aise sawal jinke jawab shayad uske pas na ho....aur aisa jaruri nhi ki use koi takalif nhi ho rhi hogi aapse juda hone me..use kuchh toh mehsoos ho rha hoga aapke liye...koi lamha use taumra yaad aayega....shayad jivan ka koi din na bite ek baaraapko yaad kiye bina ya phir ho bhi skta h ki use kuchh mehsoos na ho rha ho, ho sakta woh alag hone k baad ek baar bhi aapkoyaad na kare, ho sakta h uske liye sirf mazak rha ho sab...........kuch bhi ho sakta h.PAR Yeh toh sach h koi toh aisa lmha aapne use diya hoga jo use taumra yaad rhega...
Khair wajah chahe jo bhi ho juda hone ki agar woh jana chahta h toh aap use bina sawal puchhe jane kyu nhi dete?kya aapka pyaar itna swarthi tha jo aapne sirf khud k bare me itne sawal daag dale.... kabhi yeh nhi socha gar woh aapko chhodkar khush h toh use jane dena chahiye....
Waise bhi pyaar ka matalab hota h saathi ki khushi gar woh aapse door rhke jina chahe toh use jane kyu nhi dete....Shayad aap ussase itna pyar nhi karte ki use jane de..... shayad kabhi nhi kar sakte.... koi kisi se itna pyaar kar hi nhi sakta..log aaj ki duniya kho k sirf aapne bare me sochte h...hmmm.. ab aap soch rhe honge ussane kaunsa aapke baare me socha tha aapsejuda hone se pahle...hmmm..par yeh sochiye jara aapne usase sawal karte samay kitni baar ussake bare mein socha....hmmm..nhisocha na us samay aapko mehsoos ho rha tha ki aapke jazbato k sath khilwad kiya gaya h....par aap bhi unke jazbaton kaha khayal karrhe the sawalo ki ladiyon se... Pyaar toh woh hota jo bina kisi sawal k, bin bataye samajh jata h.... shayad aapne ussase itna pyaar nhi kiya ki binabataye samjh jaye!!! Pyaar me toh log ek dusare k liye jaan dene ki baat karte h...Par yeh kya aap use jane hi nhi de saktehuh...jan kaise denge jaan dene mein toh door hone jyada kasht hoga...hmmm..ispar aap kahenge ki jaan de dete toh yeh pal pal marna toh na padta..arre yahi h aapka pyaar ki aap usaki khushi nhi dekh sakte jisase aap pyaar karte h....WAAH kya pyaar h..........!!!!!
Aisa pyaar milna mushkil h shayad namumkin jitna par yahi sachchha pyaar h jo unki khushi mein hamesha saath de...!!Jo shak sawal se door hota h.
Hmmmm...ab aap soch rhe honge ki ussane toh kabhi aapse pyaar nhi kiya hoga..!!! Ho bhi sakta h par aapne toh kiya naphir us pyaar ko jine chhamta rakhiye na... us pyaar ko jina sikhiye...
PYAAR MEIN PANA KHONA NHI HOTA....PYAAR BS EK ADBHUT EHSAAS H JISE JI BHAR KAR MEHSOOS KARNA CHAHIYE....
USAKE HAR RANG KE SANG........................................
Agar use aap bewafa kahte h toh aap bhi bewafa se kam kaha usase sawal karke yahi pyaar tha jo khamoshi nhi samjh sakta jo unki khushi nhi dekh sakta.....huh.....
SOCHIYE KYA AAP KISI SE ITNA PYAAR KAR SAKTE H KI AAP USE DOOR JANE DE GAR WOH JANA CHAHTA HO...!!!PYAAR TOH AISA HI HOTA JO BALIDAAN MANGTA H......GAR AAP BALIDAAN NHI KAR SAKTE TOH AAP PYAAR NHI KAR SAKTE....

Saturday, December 20, 2008

KUCHH RISHTEY...

RISHTEY
Kuchh risthtey zindagi me bade ajeeb hote h. Unhe kya naam de samajh nhi aata.Ehsaas rhta h ki har pal paas h par jab hath badha kchhuna chaho toh koi kareeb nhi hota.Pra jab koi saath na ho toh woh rishta hi farishta ban jine ki nayi umang deta h.
Aisa lagta h jaise sath bhi h auralag bhi..Ek ehsaas rhta h jab koi nhi hoga toh woh rishta jarur sath nibhayega.Najane kaise us rishtey par duniya k aneko rishto se jyada vishwas ho jata h.... bharosha rhta h hum hamesha saath h. Ek dorr hoti h jo bandhi bhi hoti h aur khuli bhi hoti h... hatho me hath bhi h par bahe juda bhi h.. saath toh rhte h par humsafar nhi...
Jab lagta ki hum saath h toh lagata h saare jamane khushi sang h par agale hi pal koi nhi hota kareeb. Phir bhi jab kabhi mannko lagta h ki koi toh sath ho, koi toh ho jisase sab kah doon.. koi raaz na rakkhe...har kissa bayan kar de tab woh anokha shakshh hi naraz aata h... kabhi lagta h hum paas nhi toh door sahi par meri toh mabzil ho tum... Woh rishta na toh baya krte banta h na toh chhupate banta h..us ek rishtey ki badaulat kitne hi rishton me garamahat bani rahti h.Us ek rishtey se mile ehsaas kitne hi bejaan rishton me jaan daal dete h.Kaisi bhi uljhan ho us rishtey ko lekar par ek baat toh sach h ki us ek rishtey ne woh sab de diya jo shayad duniya k tamam rishto se nhi mila.Yeh rishte shayad dharti aasma jaise hote h jinhe dekh k lagta ki aaage kuchh doori par dono mil jayenge par aisa hota nhi h.lakin dono hamesha saath rhte h...Par agar dharti k upar aasma na ho toh na jane kabka suraj ki tez kirane use bhasm kar chuki hoti...Ya rail ki patari jaise jo har ane wali mode par lagte h ki mil rhe h par milte nhi par hamesha saath rhte h... gar woh saathnhi honge toh jivan namak rail ka santulan bigad jaega aur...........................na jane phir kya hoga!!!Logo ko is bare me samjhana bahut mushkil hota kyuki hum usko naam dene ma asamarth rhte h.. sochte h kya naam de pyar ya dosti..ya phir dono ya phir kuchh aur par jo bhi h.. yeh bahut hi kimati, nazuk ,jaruri aur sach h... jo adhbhuut h..........

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Ek lafz ki takat

kahe koi apni har khusi kisi ki ek hasee pe nichhavar kardeta hai.kyu koi apni har sans me kisi ka naam japta hai. kyu log aaj bhi use kaleje se lagate hai. jiske astitva se unhe aitraaz hai.kyu aaj bhi logo ke dilo me lahren umadti hai, tarange machalti hai us ek lafz ke aate he. kyu woh aaj bhi logo ke dilo me panapta hai. jab logo ko pata hai jisne bhi us paid ka bij boya hai usne sab kuchh khoya hai. kyu log aaj bhi us podhe ki kalam bacha ke rakhte hai jo komal hone bawajood duniya ko nagfani dikhta hai.kyu log aaj bhi us paak chiz ko mante hai jise woh badnaam karte nahi thakte. kyu koi apne kadam pichhe nahi hatata us dagar pe aane ke baad. jahan aage kya mile uski koi kalpana nahi ho sakti. aage kya pata khai mile ya parvat! ab khai mile ya parvat hum har tufaan ko par kar lenge. kaha se aaya yeh hosala?? logo ko ka toh kaam hai kahna , dekhenge jo hoga so hoga.humne galati nahi gunah kiya hai agar yeh gunah hai toh, agar hum galat hai toh galat he sahi. kahan se aai yeh himmat danke ki chot pe bolne ki?? humne toh komal aur sudh podha lagaya hai duniyan ko woh nagfani dikhta hai toh kya? hume pata hai hamara podha ek din vriksh bnan sab ko chhaya dega.koi use saralta se chhu ke toh dekhe woh khud use ugane lag jayega. kahan se aaya yeh apaar manobal??hamari manzil tak jane se hume koi nahi rok sakta! woh dekho hum pahuchne wale hai. kahan se aaya yeh adangya nishchaya?? humara sab lut jaye koi gum nahi hum hai na sahlenge par har na manenge. kahan se aaya yeh anutha sahas???aur jazbaton ka bhadhta ghathta sailab jo har bar aur takat de jata hai. kahan se aaya?? YEH SAB US PAAK LAFZ KI TAKAT HAI JISE DUNIYA BADNAAM KARTE NAHI THAKTI. YEH WOH LAFZ HAI JISME KHUDA DIKHTA HAI.YEH US UPAR WALE KI SABSE BEHTARIN, SABSE ALAG, SABSE KOMAL, SABSE SHUDH,SABSE MAJBUT AUR SAB PAR JEET HASIL KARNE WALA LAFZ HAI. YEH HAI PYAAR, ISHQ AUR MOHABBAT. Is duniya ki sabse anokhi chiz jissase log bair rakhne koshish achchhi karte par kamyab nahi ho pate!! iski takat aisi hai jo gum me hasana aur ek duje ki prati nishtha banaye rakhti hai. yeh aisa paid hai jiski chhao me sab rahte hai par unhe ehsaas nahi hota hai. aur jab mehsoos hota hai toh lagta hai jannat jami par aagai hai!!!! charo disha me khusi ka rang chha jata hai!

PEACE

Its hard to get piece of peace. Although its the easiest thing to get because it lies inside your soul. But in today's life people are forgetting their soul. Just because of chaos in world; people being used and things being loved.

PYAAR mein......

Har pal koi saath rahta hai par nazare ghooma ke dekhne par koi nazar nahi aata. Na jane yeh kaisi ulfat hai, koi na ho toh lagta hai koi hamraah hai aur gar mehphil ho toh lagata hai tanhaai hai. Dil me har pal ek ehsas rahta hai, ehsas jo juba par aane se inkar karta hai, par bolta jism ke rom-rom se hai.. Kadamo ko pata bhi pata bhi nahi chalta ki kab woh milo ki duriya tay kar aa gaye yahan, jahan har cheez haseen hai, aur ab kadam he bas me nahi, woh toh har dahliz paar kar jana cahate hai... aur dil bhi un kadamo ka he saath deta hai. khwab aur haqikat me fark karna mushkil ho jata hai. Kabhi- kabhi sach lagata hai ek dum khwabo sa aur kabhi aisa lagta hai jo khwabo me bhi na shota tha.Sach sapna aur sapana sach lagta hai. Us pal me waqt bhi gata hua kahta hai sama lo in palo ko khud me kya pata dubara mile na mile... silsiley kahan se shuru hue yeh kahan yaad rahta hai! Kuchh yaad rahta hai toh woh hai tammanaa umra bhar saath nibhane ki. kuchh ajab si khwaishe umadti hai mann me, jo mann ko bechain kar deti hai. Dil ki duniya me uthal-puthal macha deti hai. par yeh uthal-puthal surili hoti hai. Har halchal me ek madhur dhwani hoti hai jo bajti dil ke taar hilne se. jab humsafar saath ho toh manzil ko pana aasan ho jata hai, par manzil kise yaad rahti hai phir toh raaste he manzil ban jate hai aur lagta hai ki yeh safar kabhi khatm na ho....